so far...

finally after some time I've decided to blog again.

Not that I didn't have anything to rant online, I did...loads in fact. But...oh well.

anyways...I think it's time I'll just tell people that it's over between me & him since last saturday. well...it shocked me in more ways than you can imagine. it shocked everyone too in fact. If i were to explain exactly what happened it would take pages!

I'm pretty much over it now...I guess. At least I hope so.

I really thought my whole world would just crumble and I'd die...somehow it didn't happen. I thought I'd cry for months...but it was only for the first 2 nights. I admit the loneliness does come and go at times...but it surprises me that it's not as hard as it seems. It really isn't killing me. I'm learning how to get along with everything.

After all that he put me through, I would imagine myself to despise him. But I couldn't...even until now. I try to...but I can't. I guess even though I have the world's worst temper...I'm not bitter and twisted..yay~!

But overall, I'm happy that I'm coping up with this a lot better than I ever thought I would. My friends are amazingly supportive towards this. Naming : Nisa, Isla, Ben & Gauri...and of course the rest :) Having them constantly making sure that I study for my exam (note : NEXT WEEK!!!) and having lil' Baby Sofea in the neonatal ward to play with everyday makes me smile day by day.

p/s: Sofea is a 6 month year old baby, who was abandoned by her unknown mother at a dumpster, found by police officers and has been living in the maternity hospital's neonatal ward ever since. She is the most adorable baby around and we'd constantly whisper to her to "go find your mom and kill her when you grow up"...hehe